Wednesday, May 18, 2005

10w4d

I am ti-red. So ti-red. I knew to expect fatigue once I got pregnant, but nothing like this. And so I haven't been blogging in a while. Am just too damn exhausted by the time I get home from work and walk the dog and check my e-mail. That, and I don't really have anything all that interesting to report.

I'm not complaining here, just stating the facts. In addition to feeling half-dead all day and every day no matter how much sleep I get the night before, I am also sporting a tummy. My friends who know that I am pregnant assure me that it looks like baby. I'm not as convinced. I think I just look fat. And if I do, it wouldn't be all that surprising- despite the fact that I am quite queasy most days, I am also quite famished and so I eat, eat, eat my way through my days. Miraculously, I've only gained 2 kilos so far (that's 4.4 pounds). Though my doctor did threaten to put me on a diet at my next visit if I didn't slow down. She seemed to think I'd gained 4 kilos in 8 weeks. Impossible and not true. She never took my baseline weight and went by what I told her. My scale says that I gained 2 kilos and I'm sticking with that story. So there.

Still, my pants don't lie and they are t-i-g-h-t! Thank goodness the maternity clothes I ordered are en route to Mexico as we speak (via my husband who is in the States on business). They arrive tonight and not a moment too soon.

The next OB visit is in 3 weeks. On June 4th. I'm hoping that we'll be able to hear the babies' heartbeats on the doppler by then. All we could hear at the last visit was the placenta.

It's strange to say this, but I do miss the constant trips and contact with my RE's office. I feel so on my own now- monthly visits. What if something goes wrong in between now and then and I don't even realize it? That is my worst nightmare.

But I am trying to stay sane and get ready for these babies. Did I already mention I think that it's a girl and a boy? Won't know anything until that magical ultrasound, of course. But I do have this hunch. I can't wait until we know for sure.